Thinking Too Much. . .

Wow, this is what happens when I can't fall asleep. I post!

Probably a good thing since I just read my last post from, let me check, a whole year ago! I find it extremely comical that I just can't seem to get sincerely invested in my blog. I think it's because I still don't really know what I'm supposed to do with it. Everyone else's blogs look so cute, and put together. I just need to figure out how to format and organize everything. Tricky little things, blogs. It can't seem to do what I want it to do when I want it to do it.

Anyways, it's almost 2am and I can't seem to shut my brain off. It's ridiculous how that happens. I get to a certain point each semester where this horrible case of insomnia just takes over my mind and no matter how hard I try, sleep is useless and unattainable. With taking 15 credits, and having a supporting role in a play on campus, and designing costumes for another production, and trying to make it all work, my mind is simply overloaded. I'm also feeling a tad needy at the moment.

You know, feeling like I need someone to be aware of me at all times; to notice what I'm feeling by just looking at me. A person who tries to fix the aches and pains of everyday life with a simple hug that you never want to end? That kind of neediness has overcome me this whole week, and it's unbearable. These are the moments when I wish I was married, because maybe then I would have a solution to end the sorrow. But I'm not sad, just... needy.

In all seriousness though, I am doing wonderful. We're going into tech week for the show next week, and it looks great. The show is coming along so nicely, and we've been able to really perfect and fine tune because of all the time we have. My costumes for the other show look great and people love them. Everything fits and I have a great girl working on the coordination of the quick changes and I've officially put everything in her hands since I can't be there next week. They start makeup tomorrow for a full dress rehearsal, so I'm going to pop in a take a peek to make sure they're doing what I want. Other than that, my obligation to that show is finished.

What might have me still going is the auditions I went through this week. 3 days.. 3 auditions.. and I have no CLUE where I stand with the director. It's really aggravating to know you did an EXCELLENT, and I mean EXCELLENT job on your pieces and the choreography, and you have too many conflicts to be consider for a lead role. The only reason I have conflicts is because I'm in a show on campus and I wasn't expecting auditions for next semester to be RIGHT DURING MY PERFORMANCES! Calm.. I'm calm.. but it's been good for me to learn how to juggle a rehearsal and an audition at the same time, because that's how professional theater works. You are constantly auditioning for that next part. It's amazing to me how far I've come in this industry in so little time. Just 4 years ago I was auditioning at my high school for my first ever role in a play, and now I'm overlapping rehearsals and shows... I've been so extraordinarily blessed, and I couldn't be more grateful.

I've started to yawn so I think that means I've spoken my mind and I can go to bed.

NIGHT ALL!

Kelly <3

New goals

Alright everyone, so today was a good day. Wanna know why? Cause I was able to organize my life a little.

So did anyone know that there are such things as white board paper sheets?! I was shocked when my roommate told me they had some at the local craft store. So we went and got some this afternoon and now I have a white board, right on my wall!!! It's the most wonderful "To-Do" list I've ever had!

So I did all my homework for tonight and then I listed everything I need to get done this week, and then a total of books I have left to read, and the total plays. 9 more for each. sigh... I'll do it! I promise, I will get it done!

But other than that I just spent the rest of the day locked away in my room upstairs. From about 5-10 I was either taking an assessment about Islam, doing a Scripture Study worksheet, or reading yet another young adult novel... But I was able to get it all done before 11!

So here I am committing to my daily post and writing to all my adoring fans. Just kidding, I know that everyone is just fascinated with my sad little life. I don't know why.. I'm just living. Just going along, trying to do whats right.

Well hopefully something a little more exciting will happen tomorrow so I can really catch your attention.

Toodles for now,

Kelly

A Package!

Silly things, packages. People sending us things that we think we so desperately need or they could be just little surprises. In my case, they were both.

Momma and Daddy sent me a package just last week with some essentials that I had asked for, but then, as always, Daddy stuffed it full of little goodies, Momma too ;)

I come to find that my scripture case isn't just full of my baptism scriptures, but Egg flower and Miso soup mixes, four comics from Momma's daily calendar, a miniature tub of pink cotton candy, and... (shudder..) Chocolate Covered Gummy Bears.

Has anyone else eaten these little morsels? I took one bite this morning, thinking I would find marshmallows on the inside but instead bit into a lime flavored chocolate covered bear... ick. I appreciated greatly that my parents thought I might loves these little things, but oh no.. unfortunately I am right with my mother when I cringe at the thought of gummy anything being covered in chocolate.

Other than that, today was pleasant. I was able to get to all of my classes, and get a fair amount of cleaning done before Family Home Evening later tonight. It was sprung on us at around 4 that "Oh yeah FHE's at your apartment! You have the lesson. Thanks" Well, that's just peachy for you isn't it?...

So I did the dishes, picked up a little in the living room, and made sure I got most of my homework done before everyone came over, which now included a lesson for this evening... I turned to the new Ensign we just recieved this Sunday. A wonderful talk by president Uchtdorf came to my rescue. I read the article and then lead a decent little discussion. I was just so grateful that everyone in our "Family" participated. I got plenty of compliments and I was just thankful I made it through...

Well, I procrastinated... again. As I was completing the critique of a play I needed to see for a class that is due by 5 tomorrow, my wonderful roommates decided to entice me with a viewing of Pride and Prejudice. I couldn't resist.. So, I saved my work and settled into the couch. We ended up, some how, using each other as the others pillow and practically falling asleep before the end of the movie.

But now it is 12am and I'm off to bed. Hopefully I can keep up with my posts. Thanks to all who read! I was shocked when my mother kept telling me how many people came to her and were so sad that I stopped posting for a while. I really didn't think anyone thought that much of my posts. Now, if I had some followers, I'll post everyday!!! So if you are a constant reader of my blog, then please scroll down and find a cute little section where you'll see those who follow me, and please take the time to become the next one!

Love and miss all my friend's and Family,

Kelly

A good feeling...

Have you ever had that feeling of "yeah, I'm doing good"... Even though your life may be crazy and all over the place, you know that you're doing what you need to be doing. I love that feeling. It's like a blanket of happiness and joy that snuggles around you and just makes you feel... safe.
I am so grateful for where I am in my life. For my accomplishments, my success's, my new experience's and even my failures. Yes, my failures! I am so glad that in this life we are given the opportunity to mess everything up, and then learn and grow from it and learn to do things even better the next time.
I'm at a point in my life where I am making serious choices and decisions that will affect me for the rest of my life. I'm constantly trying to figure out what I'm doing after college, I mean I have my dreams and aspirations and I'm working on them, but I really have no idea what my future holds. I could be MARRIED NEXT YEAR!(doubt it.. highly.. buuuut who knows :) ) That brings me to that all important choice of who to marry, and more importantly, when... I'm surrounded by married, engaged, and dating couples. I can't escape it! So that's always on my mind. Then that leads to where I'm starting my family, if I'm going to work, and then that just brings us full circle to what I'm going to do after college.
Sigh... but I'm going to be ok. I just know it. I can feel it. So as I start this new week, I'm looking forward, and pressing on with faith.

Love lots
Kelly <3

New year, new things to worry about, new changes

I'M SO SORRY TO ALL WHO HAVE BEEN CHECKING MY BLOG!!!

Disney decided that I was a human robot, in stead of a human being and made me work crazy hours from Halloween till New Years. Now that I'm back at school I have a little time between classes, and I have my weekends back!!! HURRAH!

Ok so in short, Disney World was amazing. I met wonderful people, friends for life that followed me to school, and made memories that will last a lifetime. UNFORTUNATELY due to the nature of the work I did with the Mouse, I can't explain all the fun in detail. Don't want to ruin the magic ;)

Let's jump right to my big move back to the Berg!!! January 1st ran as follows:

Work from 11:30-12:00

Steak n Shake with the crew ( friends including Brad, Emily, Katelin, and Jenna)

Home at an unreasonable, unmentionable hour

Bed

January 2nd was our last hurrah in Magic Kingdom ( MK to all us College program kids) Watched the parade, did our favorites ( Space, Big Thunder, Pirates, Haunted Mansion...)

Kate had a delicious looking Mickey premium ice cream bar, and Em and myself had Corn Dog Nuggets with nacho cheese sauce at Casey's for the last time :( and then we meandered our way up Main Street, and said our goodbyes to Cinderella's Castle one last time on our last ride on the monorail.

When we got home that night, we were a panicked mess. We cleaned the house top to bottom for check outs, and the we finished packing. Now by packing we mean this....

So now you see why I wasn't in the biggest hurry to update my blog.

Now things get interesting...

So this is how the 3rd ran:

Outta the apartment by 8 (After cleaning it till about 3)

Got picked up by a nice big van to transport us, and 6 massive suitcases to the airport ( Kate, em and I all got a flight around the same time on the same airline). We got through security, and waited.. and waited.. and waited...

Then we all go on our flights ( me and em, and then kate took a slightly earlier one) and we headed home.

Em and I got to Salt Lake at around 9 ish and went straight to bed. Then we woke up the next morning, packed up the car and drove up to Rexburg. We moved in just fine, and classes started the next day.

To sum up January... a blur... that's all. I seriously don't know how I've coped. When I signed up for the college program in march, I thought "Yeah, I'll get through til Christmas and go straight to school. No biggie"

Guess what... Big biggie... I probably spent the first week crying cause I was so stressed. But then The Wilson's, bless their hearts, surprised my parents and me with a quickie trip up to Idaho, for the long weekend. I couldn't have asked for a better Christmas present than to able able to see my mom and dad after 5 long months. It was truly a blessing, and I am so grateful that things worked out so well.

After they left I felt rejuvenated and pumped. And the last couple weeks have been lost in blur of Homework, a couple trips to Utah, and reading.

Now this is the end of my Doings with Disney. No more parks, no more magic, no more characters, no more parades, no more costumes, no more mickey bars, no more 50% discounts, no more weekends spent trying to figure out which park to go to, and no more magic. On to the grown up ways of life, and it's time to place the pixie dust on the top shelf... so long Neverland ;)

Questions... and Revelations

Hello All,

Well I just thought I'd catch everyone up on what I'm doing and the people I've met and what's going on.

Works going... ok. I'll say this, I enjoyed my job like it was the best thing in the world for about... ehhh, I don't know, 2 weeks? Then I started to settle into it and it became very monotonous. I really glad that I'm here during the holiday season for the sheer fact that Disney goes ALL OUT for Christmas and Halloween (stop, reverse that) and since I'm working all the shows and parades, I get the brunt of the christmas cheer. Yeah, they've been unpacking Christmas since about.... august. It's crazy, but quite exciting. I've heard that the Christmas parade is the biggest parade Disney has to offer, so yay!

Now, when I got to Orlando, everyone kept telling me that I was going to meet people from all over the world. I kinda believed them, but I was just expecting a whole bunch of college kids fro universities all over the states.. wrong. I can name on my hand the number of kids I've met from the actual states. Most of the people I work with are either from Korea, Russia, Ukraine, England (Liverpool.. not London), Columbia, Jamaica, and Hatti. It's truly amazing how many different cultures have been thrown into one big melting pot... hmm.. we're in America.. duh. Kelly come on :)

So the is some WAAAAAY exicting news that I need to let people know about because it's all I think about. So about a month ago now, I'm walking to the bus stop on my way to the post office for stamps, and something tells me to check my phone. So I pull out my phone and I see that I have a voice mail from my mother. Probably her telling me that she got my message and she's "Just calling me back" right?... wrong. "Keeellly, so you need to call RaeLena, because she's getting married, talk to you later. Buh Bye" I literally almost dropped my phone and just stood there, my mouth gaping open, standing in the middle of the sidewalk towards the bus stop. So I dial in a panic, my best friend since I was 4, the girl that I danced with, laughed with, the girl who my mother calls "A Surragate Kelly" or "An Adoptive Daughter". She doesn't answer, but as I wait for the bus, she calls me back. We giggle and laugh and talk about everything, how it happened, where when and how he proposed, and when and where the wedding will be. February 19th... my best friend is getting married in Reno, NV, to a wonderful man named Daniel Harlow, and I couldn't be happier! I am already in search of a perfect black dress because she asked me to be one of her bridesmaids! So now for the past month I've been on every wedding gown, bridesmaid dress site I could find. Sooner or later I'm going to take a trip to the flordia mall to see what I can find. But AHHHHHHHH my best friend's getting married! My best friend's getting married....

It's just so, thought provoking. We had always talked about what kind of dresses we wanted, what colors, and who the perfect man for us would be, and for the fact that one of my friends, my BEST friend, has finally found her's and she's planning everything, and buying the dress and picking her bridesmaids for real, is just so... real. I never thought all those childhood years would hit me smack in the face as hard as they did when I heard this news. For a while I was kind of looking at my own life, thinking of my dating life and how utterly disgraceful it is... but then I though but you know what, she's getting what's best in her life for her right now, and so are you. I am having one of the most epic adventures, meeting all sorts of new people, and most of those people are going to follow me back to college in January and I'm going to have a blast this next school year. So... I'm doing great. And she's going to have a wonderful new year in 2011.

Congrats RaeLena.... Your awesome and I wish you all the best :)

FIRST DAY OFF!!

Alright, so my friend Brad and My roommate Katelin ( whose also my friend) decided to go to Hollywood Studios yesterday for my first day off since I've started working and here's some of the awesome pics we took!